The day started off fine. Fatigue still present, but I have seemed to be used to it. Perky, as I am, as usual. Excited. Anticipating in what I've prognosticated. Then it came a twist in plan.
The absurdity is unacceptable. The style does not match, it isn't for me to decide. Rejection straight in the face. Petrified. As my mood took a sharp turn negatively. Then my emotion took control.
Holding on is tearing me apart. The boiling blood, the inconsistent breathing. The fall from heights is painful. Melancholy. There is no way I can withstand. The searing fluid burned my skin.
Headaches. Breathlessness. And my indulgence in the painful relief.
Yours truely, Zhikai |12:55 AM|
Sunday, April 24, 2005
It's been a while. so long since I blogged, as I waited for my modem to be delivered. Finally, this is what you guys have been waiting for... My Golden entry... Haha...
I know I'm being perversed, but I have to say... I am laughing at the way you guys are pushing me to go online... Anyway, thanks for the anxiety that you guys feel, I just get so much worth out of it...
So many events took place in the period of time I couldn't go online... Too much to say, I can't make myself rank them, they are all important in scuplting me into what I am, the differences in me after each day... And it's won't be fair if I were to leave any of these "WHAO" events out...
I was, and still am, tried... Totally drained by the work load building up... And the more stressful thing is, like usual, I can't get myself really starting on any of them...
At the same time, there's also the fluorishing of countless friendships... What a paradox. And I must confess that I'm falling in love with my friends... "Yucks, Zhikai, that's so gay..." I mean, ya, like totally... But it will be so deprieving for me to hold back my love for these wonderful people, in whom I see "myselves"... And being a narcissist, I have to love them all... I shall not name them, and smearing their names black for being a homosexual... I'm not one either, but I can't say I'm completely straight... I mean who can be, it's just apalling, unless he's a freak...
Well, one who has the similar train of thoughts as me, one who is a metrosexual, one who is a bitch like me, one who feels, one who's thought to be gay with me... I shall mention only one name, the other is for you guys to guess... It's Vicnan, who's also agreed on the similarities between us, who had mentioned about me in his blog a few times (no name mentioned though), who's leaving us...
Anyway, I shall end my post at this point... Isn't this the perfect way? To end with a beautiful ending like in the previous paragraph. And is literally an end, an end to our journey together in JC... Let's end it beautifully... Like....
