Saturday, July 16, 2005
I'm wondering what's up with the previous post...
I didn't know and still don't know.
Anyway, I'm not feeling as cranky now, perhaps it's the weekend which makes me feel better.
I watched "Mindhunter" with Wei Xing yesterday. And the thing is, we had no idea what the show was about and we just bought the tickets.
It's NC-16 and a thriller. So, can guess how gruesome it is? Haha... The plot is well-planned, acting is fine and the murder is meticulous. But I thought the ending is quite cliche, the photography is also not very well done. Other than that, the show is quite entertaining. Plus, if you don't know, I used to love reading thrillers. But I feel very dumb when I saw how smart someone can get. Criminal profilers, do you know how high your IQ must be in order to qualify?
Nothing in mind at the moment. Till we meet again...
Yours truely, Zhikai
|4:21 PM|
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Don't know why I'm feeling so cantankerous today!
Just have all the negative thoughts running through my mind, which is not the usual me. Sigh. My chest just feels so tight, the amount of unhappiness is choking me.
I just don't like being the ignored. The unnoticed!
I don't expect to be under limelight, but at least show me some attention.
I feel like I'm becoming more and more detestable.
Annoying.
Disgusting.
Noisy.
Irritating.
EXTRA!
I'm depressed!
The torrent of contradictions can kill me in the quickest violent way.
I'm hurt.
I bought a bible today.
I hope...
It can be the remedy to turn my tragedy into a comedy.
Although...
It has not.
Yours truely, Zhikai
|10:40 AM|
Monday, July 04, 2005
I thought I know, but I realised I don't know.
The direction, I'm heading to, seems unclear.
I can feel His presence. I believe in Him.
But my perception of Him isn't much like the same as His followers.
If their way is the best to get closer to Him, then I'll rather not comply.
You can not condone my behaviour. My doctrine.
I can, too, refuse.
'Cause I hold firm to my faith.
That it's all about choice.
Not obligation.
Yours truely, Zhikai
|2:26 AM|
