Hey, hey... It's been 4months since I wrote in my blog? Haha...
What shall I write?
Holidays already started, well, quite long time back. But there's more time to myself. This is then the root of the problem. I've been going out pretty frequently until yesterday, I was to be at home. Well, I didn't date anyone to go out, actually yes; at night, but was cancelled last minute. And so, i realized that I'm FRIEND-DESPERATE!!!
It's like I can't really breathe without seeing any of my cliques. Then I turned cranky. Very cranky. As I started to have things going through my mind since I didn't have much things to occupy my mind.
Things. Some positive ones, yes, like the friendships that flourished during my time in 206 (with the fact that I'm leaving them) and during the course of Project Circle, and also in other aspects. And also on the other end of the scale, like how these friendships will fade eventually, and how my friends might start to not like me after they know me better, since I ain't that likable anyway.
Of course I don't want any of the above mentioned to happen, but I can't make myself not think about them. And when things are at its peak, I will tend to think of its downfall, which will be drastic if it were to happen. Then again, I've been through, not just once. Yet I still can't tell myself to be numb about such happenings.
Whatever will be, will be (how cliche?). I shall enjoy whatever God gives me at the moment. What's next, I don't know, and I don't want to prognosticate (although I'm paranoiac) what's to come...
