Thursday, December 15, 2005
Feelings.
Experienced some feelings, which I find special today, I thought I should share it with you guys, though I ain't very good with descibing them in a very poetic way like some people do.
Feeling a queer sense of urgency to be meeting someone I meet so often and not have seen for some time.
Punctual seems late.
Feeling a ticklish giggle in my chest as I'm about to get something I desire yet not possessing it officially.
I so want it now.
Feeling a surge of laughters in the mind as I find something funny and amusing but can't laugh out loud as others may not find it funny at all.
I shall shut up.
Feeling comfortable with people which will allow my freedom of speech.
Passiveness, and "mute-ning" when it's another way round.
Zhikai not speaking his mind? Unexpecting, but true.
Feeling a sense of blissfulness when a love flourishes before me.
Praise the LORD.
Feeling a sense of friend-security when a friend makes me the first person he share something that makes him happy.
I shall take it that I'm important to him. Haha...
Feeling a sense of achievement when someone achieves something I have put an effort in making it possible.
Feels better than when I achieve it myself.
Feeling a day with so many feelings.
*Breathe in breathe out*
Great.
Yours truely, Zhikai
|10:26 AM|
Saturday, December 10, 2005
I was just reading some of my friedn's blog and realised I don't seem to have a clue with the events or people they write in the entry.
Well, I'm sure anyone of you reading my blog must also be wondering what I'm writting at times. Can't blame anyone for that, since we each enter somebody's life at his different phases.
But that doesn't matter does it? Haha... I'm still reading their blogs although half the time, I'm like "eh? Who's this?", "When was that, how come I'm not included?" and "Oh, I wouldn't have felt this way".
Maybe that's the interesting part of it... I do find some of the blogs, of people I link to, very interesting, and nice to read. Won't go into detail who, but you know like Cindy's, which is like very unique in its own way. Oops, didn't I say I won't go into detail like saying Kim's blog is sickeningly readable, and Eunice's blog a can't-miss everytime I web browse. Oops, oops I should stop saying things like YinHong's blog's amusing, SeePing's my frequent tribune.
Okay, I should really stop. Shut up Zhikai....
I gotta go anyway, so I shall stop here.
Yours truely, Zhikai
|6:15 AM|
Friday, December 09, 2005
The day before yesterday marks the end of the chain of projects the team, Project Circle, will be doing. It will sound cheesy but I still have to say what I gained from this is not just the CIP hours (about 90hrs), but the sweet memories and the pool of nice friends, that made it worthwhile and memorable.
Sigh. But I'm sure our friendships will persist, or? Okay, I shan't be the paranoiac me for this time.
Other than that, there is also a friendship that is somehow relighting. I don't know if it will be, but I'm not really doing anything to make it possible. I'm not the sort who will try to repair something after it's been ruined, okay not so bad, faded. That's why Friendster's not for me. Let's not drift away from the main topic. So if you are reading this, and know what I mean, I encourage you to not pin too much hope, or try harder. I'm a heartless soul, haha...
Moving away from social life, I'm also making changes to my personal life. I'm 4 days into eating 2 sets of fruits (an orange, pear or apple) everyday, and 2 days into exercising (jogging, push-ups and sit-ups)every evening. Partly because of Weiming's advice. Also I thought, since I'm quite a metro already, why not do the full set as to working on my physique than just my hair and face, fashion too. Will try the 3 days detox, eating only fruits, next monday onwards too. It feels good, yes, minus the aches due to the lack of exercise for a prolonged period. Hope this will continue even when school reopens.
Think that shall be it. Till next time.
Yours truely, Zhikai
|9:00 PM|
