Thursday, June 22, 2006
The song that is playing now is
"Do you have a little time" by Dido.
There was once I was listening to it several times a day. Now, I suddenly start to listen to it again after a very long period of not really listening to it.
And I realise it applies very much to me and perhaps a lot of people around me.
Do we make time for love?
I am always very open about this thing called love, and I have no taboo or what-so-ever about telling a friend I love(not in the romantic sense) him/her.
I often ponder about it though.
And I told someone whom I love every much that it can be selfish to love. Because when you love someone, you would want to do things to make the person happy. And when the person is happy, you feel happy too. So isn't you loving just to make YOURSELF happy?
And how about those selfless love often portrayed in movies? That you will love someone so much, you grant the person happiness, and you in misery. But then again, isn't it selfishness again? That you give your loved one happiness just to make YOURSELF feel good.
Oh no, this is catastrophic.
LOVE is SELFISH.
SELFISH is BAD.
Therefore,
LOVE is BAD.
So we shan't love? But what makes you if you don't love? SELFISH.
Okay, this is getting a whee bit confusing.
In conclusion, loving or not loving, we still can't help it but to be selfish, so why not love and be selfish rather than not loving yet is still selfish?
Tell the people around you that you love them(cliche).
Because you never know they may get banged by a car the next moment(that's me, as some of you guys know).
L.O.V.E
Yours truely, Zhikai
|2:52 AM|
Friday, June 16, 2006
My best friend's best friend, Joanne, asked me to update my blog.
So here I go.
I'm happy.
Best friend's best friend, Happy?
Yours truely, Zhikai
|11:45 PM|
Thursday, June 08, 2006
The past 3days been really fruitful, not in studying aspect but other.
Spent 2 days at the church's Leadership Training Camp. It's been a good time to get closer to some of the youths which I've never got to since I'm always leaving straight after service or Bible study. And the most important part of it is the embrace of God's presence with us, reflected very much on my incompetence in pleasing God and definitely lots of tears.
Spent time with the crazy 213 again, cycling from East Coast to Kallang stadium. Minus the butt pain, it's been a cool ride with crazy events like the soccer ball in longkang... Pool with the guys was also very fun, though it made us missed the buses home. Stayed over at Daryl's place, which opened my eyes to his...
Very cool shower room... Haha...
Now, I must do abit of a reality check. Whatever it is, may God bless these happy memories and experiences, everyone involved, so they may last.
Yours truely, Zhikai
|1:35 AM|
Thursday, June 01, 2006
I'm happy these days, really.
It's nothing more or less, just happy.
I think I'm quite a sad case, 'cause I'm always very much affected by friendship matters. And you could have guessed, I'm happy 'cause I'm happy with the friends around me.
I feel appreciated, and that's really enough. No need for gifts or big words, or rather empty words. And that's perhaps something I didn't enjoy some years back.
Anyway, there've been events going on around me, like stef's case and also something else. I was begging to disagree with stef's statement that all men are jerks, 'cause I feel that is really childish which both men and women should send to venus and mars respectively.
But these events really make me feel ashamed for guys.
Insensitive.
Tactless.
Selfish.
Stoic.
Dumb.
Numb.
I know I shouldn't be saying that on the fact that I'm a guy myself, but this is just what I see very often in guys. And I'm not generalising, I mean there are guys I can see are not like the above mentioned, and I certainly hope they really are not. And I definitely hope I will not fall into any of what I've described.
Yours truely, Zhikai
|7:46 PM|
